All done
Saturday 2nd Aug
After the month of July I am worn out. Not only did the uncomfortable challenge test me, but the month itself did too.
I am NOT a winter person and the colder months tend to bring me down. I cannot seem to consume enough food, enough warm drinks and enough sleep.
I was constantly tired and worn out from work. Not only the funerals and the immense mental load that comes with being a Funeral Celebrant, but if I am honest, it was also weddings as well.
Whilst I LOVE my job and it is always such an honour to marry and celebrate people, when you have an empty tank; it's hard to remain upbeat and give enough of yourself.
I hope that I am able to disguise this well, particularly when I am in my role and officiating; but those who know me well, can see right through the mask.
Week one - "Saying No". I was not faced with too much, so that one; whilst I thought it was going to be really hard (people pleaser) it was ok.
Week two - running - eeeeewww.. I just didn't love it. I did it, and I am proud of myself; but it did not spark change in me to go out and get some runners and get on the trot.
Week three - positive affirmations that I wrote on my mirror, I only missed one day; and these are still up. So that did feel good to do this. For someone who suffers from pretty awful self hatred at times, this was uncomfortable; but there were also moments when I really took in what I wrote about myself.
Week three - I also did some meditation (mostly at night) and this was glorious! I think this will be something that sticks around in my life.
Week four - The one I was most stressed and uncomfortable about - wearing less clothes to the gym, a crop top.
Wow day one of this was hard, but from then on I just reminded myself that NO ONE cared. No one probably even noticed and in the scheme of things; me wearing a little less, was NOTHING to stress about!
There was so much happening in that time, we had lost two people we knew and cared for, and people I knew had lost people too, we had two lots of moves happening within our family, stresses around the home for various reasons and for goodness sake I needed to wake up to myself and keep it all in perspective.
So, July is done. I did it.
I probably slacked off a little on the socials and the promotion of the uncomfortable challenge, but I still participated.
So, if you're reading this; thanks for helping. Thanks for the support and thanks for love.
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Always a big supporter of you Kel, and the importance of being able to talk about and share our experiences of mental health challenges and the impacts of mental health on families and communities.